Is it pride or stubborness?

For those of you who actually read this, you should know me by now. You know that I'm a very stubborn and pridefull person. These two things are my biggest downfalls and weaknesses. I don't know what it is that makes me this way, but I have always been like that. I guess growing up, having a strong sense of pride was literally beat in to me lol. Going through junior high and high school with more people who would rather poke fun at me than sit down and get to know me....made me need to be pridefull...I needed something lol

The thing is though, that even to this day this pride or stubborness...or whatever you want to call it, makes it hard for me to let go of things. It makes it hard for me to give up on things. It makes it hard for me to sit back and watch and see what happens. I have always been the guy that fought for what he wanted and never gave up...especially when I know that it was worth it...... Well I'm to that point again. Do I keep fighting and working towards what I want....or do I finally make my stubborness take a back seat to patience on this one?

Curveball

You know, it's amazing what life throws at you on a monthly...weekly...even daily basis. A lot has happened this last month and a half that I would have never expected. Dusten moved out of the house last month. I miss the kid but ever since he moved out, things have just started to get more and more interesting around here. Dan moved into the house to fill Dusten's spot and I gotta admit that I'm happy that I'm living with him. I know we've had our past disputes but we've been friends since freshmen year of college and it's actually reall y cool living with him. Never a dull moment in our house lol.

Another curveball that life has thrown my way this last month is the new group of people that I've been hanging out with lately. They've been great. Brittany, Kai, Mel, Joe, Natalie, Jacki....a couple of months ago I only knew a couple of them but now we pretty much plan parties together....which by the way were having one every saturday until we decide other wise lol.

I've been hanging out with Kai and everything that we've talked about lately has really opened my eyes to the fact that you can't predict anything and you can't worry too much about the future...because you never know what can happen. So I'm challenging whoever reads to try and learn to take one day at a time, take it all in stride, and worry about problems when they come. Because worrying about problems before anything happens...only causes them to appear sooner when they might not have showed up at all. Life is too short to worry about everything, I know this all too well, and I'll be damned if I'm goin to waste my life worrying about the future when I can enjoy the feelings of here and now.

-Kyle....comment

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It's been a long time comin...

I know, I know!! It's been over three years since I've even looked at this thing, so hopefully everyone who was reading and keeping up to date with me before is still interested. So here goes, the last two years in a nut shell and what I've been up to now adays.

Where do I start...well I did it. I graduated college with an Exercise Science major and a marketing minor. I know, woot right? It was a long road but I made it. Long hours and many skipped classes and I'm a college graduate. Bahahaha. Since I last left you all, I've been through a lot. Some good....and then again some bad. Finding new friends to live with and go from friends to "pretty much brothers"...Dusten you know what I mean. This was a big boost to me, finally finding somewhere that I fit into. The friends that I've made these last three years have been amazing and will continue to be there for me. For that I'm gratefull. I especially needed alot of them last year when I lost my Grandpa... He was our main male figure growing up because we weren't able to see our dad as much as we would have liked to, so it was hard to deal with the fact of losing him. The hardest part of it was when Grandma asked us (me, Levi, and our 4 other male cousins) to be the palbearers(spelling?). Carrying his casket to his final resting place shattered my heart and tears just kept flowing. I still wear my Shiled of Faith necklace because it reminds me of him. I know he's better off now, and I know that I will see him again. Sleep well grandpa.

Now, today I am working in a gym in Anderson as a personal trainer. I'm building up my client base and I've gotten about 18 clients now. Slowly but surely I'm growing my own little business, so just have to keep goin. I'm specializing in massage therapy and rehab, but right now I am training clients in kickboxing, self-defense, losing weight, agility, and strength enhancement. I like it, but it tends to get a little monotonous at times...and very long days lol.

I'm living with my brother, our friend Brian, and Dan at the moment...but we have like 5 unofficial roommates that are always over too. lol We just took in our friend Joe's dog...I missed having a dog and this one completes the house lol. We have been having FANTASTIC parties lately the last couple of weeks...seriously epic lol Can't wait till next week.

My mom started to date again, this is happiest I've seen her in a long time, so all the best mom. :)

I will leave ya'll with that for now, and if you have any questions...comments...stories... let me know :)

-Kyle..out

WOW, I really haven't updated this let alone look at this in a ling time lol. Well for those interested in what is goin on in my life, I'll tell you. My life isn't goin the best right now. My mom doesn't know how long she will be able to keep her job. This is a huge problem because she pays for my school, so if she looses her job, I won't be able to finish school for awhile.

On another note, the house that I was planning on living in next year fell through so, I am goin to live in the dorms again with my friend Dusten. Unless I can talk with B Mitch and make plans on housing with him, I don't know.

I'm going to be here in Anderson for the summer because I have an internship over at the White River Fittness Club. I don't think it will pay, so I need to find another job too. Please someone visit me over the summer lol. I'll be kinda bored. :)

I've been feeling incredibly useless lately. Like noone really cares if I'm here or not. Like I'm just floating around to be an occasional acquaintance for someone to talk to. That's not what I want to be. For anyone who knows me, they know that I am always there for my friends or whoever else needs someone to be there for them. I don't feel like I have that anymore. I could be wrong. The closest person I have to being that for me right now is B Mitch or Big Bwudda, but I hardly see them so it's hard.

That's what's goin on with me right now, you know what to do.

 Ok, so since everyone has been getting on my case about updating this thing, I might as well give in. Am I right? I guess more people want to know whats goin on with me than I thought. I just thought they could ask me personally if they were wondering. I'm an honest guy, I don't mind telling people what's goin on, but ohh well.

 Let us see, School is going pretty good so far. The first month has went by without a hitch. I have gotten A's in all of my tests and quizzes so far. The only class I am worried about right now is my Amercain Foreign Policy, but I know I can get through it because I have Renee and Jacquie to help me hehe.

 I love spending time with my girls. They are the best, strongest, most beautiful girls that I have ever had the pleasure to know. Why they want to spend so much time with me is still a mystery. Renee, Jacquie, Nikki, I love you all, and I hope you know it.

All club formal was a blast. I had the pleasure of having the company of three girls. The car ride there was fun, because I kept messing with the raido and driving Jacquie crazy with country. When we got to the formal, I was highly disappointed with the food that they had out. The dessert on the other hand, made up for the whole thing. I love cake haha. Then came the dancing!! YES. HOW FUN! I tend to get crazy at dances because I don't care what people think of me. I still can't believe I crowd surfed. J. B. if you read this, I just want to say that the shower dance. STROKE OF GENIOUS! I love you bro. You are an inspiration to me. Also, J Reel. I don't think I would have had as much fun without you there. I still don't know why Jacquie kept giving me the camera since I'm the one that does the stupid things. The night was a blast. There was one girl in particular I wish could have been there, but she was too busy soaking up the Florida rays. Just lettin ya know, that it would have been twice as better with you there Nenee.

Well lets see, thats about it for now. If you want anything else. You know what to do. Ask, It's as simple as that;)